Do I have what it takes to lead? I have moments of confidence and then after speaking with certain people I feel deflated like I am not meant to do what I feel called to do. I often wonder can I?
- Can I be a good pastor?
- Can I be a better parent?
- Can I make it in the real world?
- Can I be an effective writer?
- Can I….?
I recently read a blog post about admitting you aren’t the one. It made me think “am I the one to change the world with my writing?” Or am I just another guy going through seminary to say I have a degree? Where I am right now I could make a difference in someones life. I like to think I do on Monday nights, as I lead a small (sometimes 5-20guys) group of men.
I know that in and of myself I cannot do it. It requires a humble dependance on Jesus and his work through the Holy Spirit. There is not one thing on that list I feel qualified to do on my own. If I’m honest and other Christians are honest they feel the same way.
One thing I need to keep at the front of my mind is that I am running my own race, not someone else’s. I cannot train to be someone else. I can only train for the roles I am called to.I need to play my position. Because not everyone is called to be a Paul (you know the guy in front). Some of us are called to be Luke’s (support personnel) or a Timothy (a future leader). I am still not clear on whether I am a Timothy or a Luke and that is okay.
To answer my own questions of “Can I….?” Yes I can be all of those things; if it is in God’s will and as long as what I’m perusing is pure. I can do anything as long as I believe I capable of trying. The only true failure is to not try at all. I’m making a promise to myself now that I may mess up but I will always try.
What do you need to tell yourself you can do? Where do you need some encouragement today?